And they rode on in the friscalating dusklight

After two days of orientation, I am completely discombobulated. Half of me is unbelievably stressed out by meeting people and making small talk. This half has had enough of hysterically funny conversations where you laugh and laugh and laugh but are constantly stressed that you're going to be the one who drops the ball and makes the other two people in the conversation stop and look at their watches. The other half has gotten used to the orientation lifestyle and doesn't know how she's going to last from Thursday to Tuesday without seeing all of the new people she's met.

The first half doesn't want to talk to another human being for as long as she lives, but the second half wants to go out and socialize socialize socialize. So far, the first half is winning. I came home last night looking forward to painting my toenails, eating pita chips and very garlicky hummous and watching The Royal Tenenbaums. Unfortunately, I was kidnapped and forced to leave the house, but I made myself useful by making cookies, speaking only when spoken to and trying not to make people laugh and start another of those stressful vicious cycles of hilarity. I was still so knocked out by the day's socializing that I came home, tried to finish the movie, and fell asleep in the middle of it. Shame on me.

srah - Friday, 29 August 2003 - 3:42 PM
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gravatar Jez - August 31, 2003 - 4:25 PM -

I get that sometimes. I might want to go out and see friends and have a good time etc etc. But a part of always just wants to stay in where it's nice and cosy and just read, or vegetate in front of the TV/computer screen.

gravatar katie - September 2, 2003 - 11:16 AM -

You poor thing. We must do all we can to rid you of that life you're having.

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